The Empty In.

I am done with this blog.

I’ve decided to leave this blog behind me. I’m going to keep it just in case I’d like to look back on all the things I once thought but I haven’t been posting on it for a while because I’m just done with it.

Here is a link to my new blog. Follow if you want.

Rainne

Forget Moises, why dont you just marry me?

justmybonnie replied to your post: I don’t know what it is about me

Don’t you worry. You’re gonna be a superstar! :) I felt the same way when I started college. Three colleges later, I’m finally starting to feel somewhat “normal” again. Just remember that everyone’s proud of you. You got mad skills little miss :)

This is why I want to marry you. Seriously though thank you Bonnie. You are an amazing person and I love you. Always have.

I don’t know what it is about me

But I always clam up when it comes to being responsible. It’s hard for me to care about anything enough to make me stick with it and it effects my ability to perform. I’m bad at deadlines, I’m bad at time management and prioritizing. In contrast it seems like I’m great at sleeping in and wasting my time. But it’s just not enough for me anymore. I’m always told of this great talent and potential I have and I’ve never had a problem with developing something excellent but my process is all wrong andI won’t get by on that alone and this is something I know and agree with. I look at people who are so driven and passinate and I feel like that used to be me. I used to draw for hours, I used to study and care about things and it all fell apart for me. Everything just started to look like it was all work and no fun and I lost myself. I’m very sensative to this because I feel like a failure and dissapointment to myself and all the people who put their faith in me.
But I just can’t stand a life of doing nothing. I can’t stand not working for something. It makes me feel like I can’t handle things when they get hard and that not who I am. I was never like this when I was younger. I’m going to work hard to change my life around because I only have this last chance to do it. I want to make my family and friends proud. I want to make my teachers proud but mostly I want to make myself proud.

Kanye West has taken over my life. I immediately go to him when i listen to music.

Anonymous asked: what did you get in your ap art exam?

I got a three.

I was pretty disappointed but it was my own fault. I managed my time all wrong and ended up handing in unfinished work. But for handing in unfinished work a three not that bad I guess.